confusing a person in brighton

that's what I am doing at the moment... I am also suffering from a case of media burnout. I just can't bring myself to read the news any more. Sometimes I'll read a story that I find interesting but for the most part I'll look at the screen and the headline will cause my mind to shut off. I know that news like for instance Valerie Plame being fucked by Karl Rove is important news, and that I have a birds eye view of history as it unfolds thanks to the interweb but I think I've just read too much news.
sort of like how when I first saw a person get his head lopped off online and realising afterwards that seeing it on the screen I had no more of a reaction than if I had just watched it in a movie theatre. I am becoming desensitised to information.

I never cared less about anything in my life when I heard that Michael Jackson was on trial for whatever, I felt the same lack of interest in the entire Terry Schiavo thing (only mixed liberally with disgust that it was seen as such hot news). I look at news sites as a habit these days. one of the first things I do on a computer, after checking my e-mails I go and look up the days events, but I look at the headlines and my brain shutts off I might as well try and read the news in sanscrit or geez or latin.... actually I think it's more like discovering a really awsome meal and then eating it every meal of every day for a year and eventually you would just lose all interest in food entirely, like you know you are hungry but the thought of eating just seems so laborious and the concept of food seems so boring that you decide that perhaps you're not hungry at all. I think I've got something like that going on. perhaps I need a break from the internet.

I watched most of "The Century of the Self" again with Nick and it made me want to destroy my computer and television and video collection and lose all my belongings an move out to an obscure and tiney gulf island and live on barter and folk music but that is a lot harder to do than to think about.

Kendyl was supposed to call me tonight but I guess she forgot because I never heard from her.

bleh.

I want to write more... work more on my book draft but the sun's coming up and I am sort of tired also my working draft is on the laptop and that's a bit hard to get at right now.

blah.